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SO ZAT HOWS LIFE??
Errm (*scratches head*).its ok as you can see...many fans of mine still wanders around looking for right answers...or is it??...but life is a blessing...why waste it...(*Looking at the audience with a grin*)

YOUR LOVED ONES??
Yes.... my dearest Siti Khadijah aka Butterfly

I HEARD YOU ARE NOW PLAYING THE KEYBOARD...IS THAT TRUE??
yes...its true...i have been playing the guitars for 10 years and i thought it would be nice to have a change(*winks*)

WHEN DID YOU START??
Errm (*all silence in the theatre*)actually,just recently(*laughing*)...ok...i began to have interest so last year i started learning on my own

THATS IMPOSSIBLE??
Not quite(*scratches neck*)all it takes is self believe...i believe if you really want to do it you can with all your heart...put some passion in it...it took me only 2 months(*Smiles*)

HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT BEING AWARDED FOR BEST GUITARIST LAST YEAR??
(*LAUGH at Jude, then to audiences*) what do you think...Woah....shock and happy...

YOU PRODUCED OPERATION ROCKSTAR 2006 RIGHT??
Yes...it was a hell of a work....everyone was wonderful,the audiences,the sponsors and most of all my crew who stood with me rain or shine

IT SURE WAS A SUCCESS??
yes it was...every hardwork paid off...i was sooo happy i cried

THE LAST TIME I INTERVIEWED YOU,YOU WANTED TO BREAK INTO THE MUSIC INDUSTRY AND YOU DID
sure it has but it wasnt easy though...you knew that...all it takes is preseverence and self-believe

HEARD YOU WANNA GO ON TOUR??
i m going on tour to asia first...my first stop will be KL in december and hope to see u all there...

BY THE WAY AIZAT...Heard your new song...its great...!!!
yups...i wrote it for my Siti actually....its going to be on air soon so be patient aitez...

ANY LAST WORDS??
Yeah....Listen to what is being advised not the person advising...(*winks*) i learned that the hard way if life is unfair....then take it as a flower which wilthers always sad and lonely until watered... Thanks Jude...see you in my concert....VIP tix for you and to all audiences... Stand a chance to win the tix....just log on to www.keepitmoviin.blogspot.com (*Flying Kiss action*)

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Hello.... i think its time to update my blog la.... but its ok...i dun think many do read....hahaha...but first i would like to start off by telling everyone about this obssession me and my family and even sayang has that its always haunting us every single day.... BOWLING... ok...at first it started with my family who was so into bowling that my makciks meet at e hub every wednesday or thursday just to bowl...and ya...i even bought my mum bowling ball and shoes u noe for this...so it didnt effect me at first...and even sayang told me like...korang tak jelak2 ke bowling but after a while...it spread into our systems and it made us wanna bowl every single day... i even bowled around 7 games in a day...but to my mum..thats normal lah... can u imagine tat... but still,.... we noe we have fun...

Ok... on saturday.. i rented a car and then meet sayang at her place to pick her up... but before that i wanna apologize to dayat...brader...sorry k... our timings didnt werk for us...but i promise...we will plan out the next outing and this time we will plan it thoroughly... ok... so i continue... then we played bowling at tampines safra... hmm...we were on form that day as our points were good.... and there was this once we exchange places me and sayang...i played for her and she played for mine... she got a strike for me and i got zero for her....imagine her fury...heehehe.... then after we playewd bowling...we thought of going to this place in ang mo kio to eat...but had to u turn to sayangs werkplace to take the tv that her boss gave to her which she gave to me and eventually it ended up in my mums bedroom... then we ate at this overrated place called Charco's... i saw it was promising at the website but it really is disappointing...it didnt turn out as well as i thought.... hmm.... but anyways... after that we went to night safari... where they had this halloween night and the place was full with ppl with costumes and scaring vsitors around.... it was actually fun as we hear a lot of screamings and the ghost which they acted out some were pretty scary... actually...i felt a bill creeped out cos some is really scary...and there is this one princess ghost which i think is cute...not scary... hehehehe... we walked around which sayang claims tat she felt like the one who pwas protecting me...but u noe lah its not true...
;p.... but it was fun walking around gettings scared by witches wannabe and hearing my sayang shouted and also animals around...soem are really smelly.... then we watched this great show called creatures of the night...it was fun... then after tat...around 11 we went off....we sat at esplanade to chill a while and then thats the end of our story....hehehehe... i njoyed most part of the outing.... i njoyed my time with my sayang... i love you dear... *muackz* sign off.... peace...

[Rock On People! ]2:48 AM

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Hello.... im gonna update my blog for the stuff i did over the weekend.... hhehehehe... actually.... its nothing much on the Saturdays and Sundays but its alright.... oh and firstly i would like to say since its already past Hari Raya...im gonna write new songs oweadi.... new different song with different story..... and im gonna keep practising some covers like 'From Yesterday' by 30 Seconds From Mars. and 'Iris' by Goo Goo Dolls... but most of the songs will be covered by me in my own style.... Sooo i might be posting some songs on Youtube....hehehehe...

Sooo the story begans... i went to werk and i was kind of surprise... i mean for the first time in how many months of werking suddenly my workload at my workplace came non stop that even i had to rush for lunch... poor me...hehehe... then i went back home and stayed there for a while while watching Manchester United beating bolton 2 - 1 and the best thing is i was actually conincidently wearing a Man U jersey.... hahahaha... then afte that match...i met eddy at bukit gombak and then we both took a cab back to his place to chill and played gaames before we fell asleep.... Then the next day i was suppose to wake up at 10 and then i woke up at 11 when sayang called me... i was late... sorry sayang.... cos we actually wanted to have breakfast at KFC... but we still managed to get to eat... i ate bandido pockett and eddy the same.... while sayang ate zinger... hehehe... we have a soccer match to play u noe...but we didnt care but its gonna haunt us soon on that day too... so we went back to my place...grab my gear...kissed my sayang goodbye and then went to soccer... i am playing for dayats team... and it was fun too... we wont 2 - 0 and i played at the second half... i played ok lah...almost scoring two...hehehe.... i told dayat not to expect so much from me cos i never played for a while...but alhamdulilah...i played well and its my first time playing alongside eddy.... we combined well with that too... hehehe... then after that i went back home to bathe and then head on to werk... and now im here at werk...blogging...heheheh....

oh and last thing before i signed off...i wanna say something first as usual... i was down and out on saturday because of the workload at werk but i ended up smiling when i went back home cos there was someone who made me smile all the way... she gave me lots of hope and motivation that i couldnt stop smiling.... she is just like an angel who cares for me when she noes im down... I love you sayang... im very lucky to ahve u in my life dear... *muackz*

Take care... : )

[Rock On People! ]9:14 AM

Friday, October 16, 2009

Hmm.....im gonna update my blog now cos finally i have the time to update... hehehe... dun ask y k... at least i update what... i mean...i have always not updating so i feel that if i havfe free time and when im not singing and playing musics...y not rite... hehehe... ok...lets start with events last week...here we go...

I woke up early in the morning and i can see dark clouds and yes it was really not a favourable weather cos that is the only day i get to jalan raya ramai2 with my frens and i seems that i already booked a lorry and it has no covers... it clouded my judgement too and i didnt noe wat to do at first... take a deep breath...calmed down and then i went to the internet and look at the weather forecast and i seems like its gonna rain the whole day... so without any delays...i took out classifieds and called all the numbers i need to check if they have lorry with covers... i panicked but managed.... i got it..!!! it didnt matter where...so i took a cab there and then got the lorry for 130 bucks.... so u noe...i went to pick the people up including my syg to go jalan raya... first house my house.... it was drizzling at first but in the end the whole day was warm... haiz.... but its ok... we expected 15 ppl but only 9 turned up so we have to make do of wat we have lor....we went to Jack's place...actually it is his name and his house... we karaoke there and had so much fun...then to farid place...then to nana's place....then to ami's place....then to arsyad place...then to diana's place.... and clemence did followed too.... most of the house we went to had food and most of us ate and ate and ate....hahaha... fun lor... then send everybody back.... but in the end we managed to get back less than around 80 bucks and i had to forked out the rest but its ok for me though....

the next day i went to werk early in the morning.... then after werk, i picked nana and sayang up and then head to Irah's place to raya and then at the same time karaoke... i sang loads of songs and enjoyed dinner there before the 3 of us went to bowling.... then after that we meet didi at teh tarek and then irah joined us few moments later and we chilled at the beach throughout the night before i sent everybody back and the truck back... Sweetest thing was my Sayang followed me to send the truck back even though both of us didnt have a wink of sleep... : ) Thank you sayang....

Lets jump to today.... i had loads of fun going out with sayang today for her pre school shopping.... i went to friday prayers first before i meet sayang.... we ate at long johns where sayang ate cajun chicken grilled and i ate the 2 crunch combo... hehehe... then we head to far east plaza and the first stop was this shop at the 1st storey of far east.... the shop have nice expensive clothes and because we both saw SALE, we went straight in and sayang saw a nice dress...took it and straight to the dressing room...when i saw her wearing the dress...i was speechless cos she was very beautiful and even some japanese tourist complimented her looks before sayang helped the tourist with her dress...hehehe...then we bought it for 70 percent discount... hehehe... then we continued to another shop... we both continued shopping till we saw this shop and saw two dresses which sayang tried on... when she walked out of the dressing room again, two gerls actually saw her and said lawa.... then they actually helped sayang to choose the dress.... i smiled.... : )
then we went to another shop to buy another dress.... overall sayang was really sastified and im glad i was happy for her.... : ) and then i sent her to werk before i went to meet ami and dayat....we tok cock then we went back... : )

Sayang.... i love you saayaang.... : ) ure the only one i love and care for... no one can replace u in my heart....

[Rock On People! ]10:37 AM

Thursday, October 08, 2009

A ha.... today... im not gonna say lots of stuffs.... its gonna be updatings only bout my day... so this is what happened today... ehem... i went back home from work and i took bus home... reached home and then straight went to sleep... so at 1230 hrs, my sayang woke me up... make a fool out of me in my belo mode... :p then i woke up to bathe... while bathing in the freezing water... i saw that it was raining quite heavily so i called father to pick me up so i wont be drench...hehehe... so when i reached at sayang's place... i had to wait...as usual.. :p then we went to e h the tstart our bowling practice...to practice for the tournament... Shahzad's Cup... i actually forgot it was Thursday... it was my makcik's bowling day... so i remembered and then i said to sayang..' hopefully they wont be here today.. then came Cik Teh and she saw us... yups...Mother gonna be here too i guess... hehehe... so sayang and me continued playing and i got a high score and so did my syg.. ;) and we played two games... then came Cik Tam and Cik Ngah... and oh... Sayang was so scared that Mak long is gonna come cos she used to be the fiercest and we used to be scared.... but she didnt...then we went off to eat Tendergrill mushroom swiss at BK and im telling you all...its superb...i love it... then after all that, we went to see the makciks bowling... MOther was already there and then came Cik Yat and Uncle... they played a few games and i went off first to send sayang to werk...

I have to tell you a story...some might think its sweet...i do.... : )
just now.. i wanted to go for my daily run... got my sweats on...my shoes and MP4 ready... so i did... and oh... yesterday halfway while running my legs failed me fyi... so i went off... before that i sense that sumthing is wrg with my syg so i gave her a call... then she told me bout stuffs that she was frustrated at and i listened... and calm her down and talk and talk... then suddenly out of nowhere...she starts getting angry at me... and talk to me rudely..i was stunned and a bit angry..but as u no im patient so itry to talk things with her but she insisted on me going on running first... i said ok!! then i ran.. and oh another fyi... i can really run very2 long distance if im angry...and even fast too... so i finished up my usual round 10 mins faster than my usual 30 min run route... then i gave sayang a call again...and guess what...she apologize straight away and explained to me why she purposely made me angry... : ) all she wanted to do is to make me more motivated to run so i will finish up the round this time around.... i was touched by her gesture...even though its unorthodox... it was really sweet of her... I love her sooo much... see... doesnt she deserve a kiss... :)
take care people....

[Rock On People! ]10:48 AM

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Hmm... i guess this time there wont be many things to say to everyone but i would love to advise....hehehe....but before i do that....theres a piece of advice for an advice...never give advicec if we ourself are not good enuf for it.... it means... for eg....if i advice you about how bad smoking is...i repeat eh... for example... then i shuld jolly well dun smoke lor...get it...its not such a diff thing to understand cos its kinda easy to say but diff to do...u get wat i mean.... sometimes we can tell many ppl many things but in the end its harder for us to do when situation comes in place... i noe one weakness of mine is i tend to be slower in reacting when things gets difficult... but not to worry.... jeng jeng jeng.... work harder each time.... insya'allah...we will do better...

oh ya...the advice.... i wanna just say if u gonna start running after 1 whole month of not running because of the puasa month... then start short first...build up the pace and momentum...no one in this world is superman...hehehe... i had to learn the hard way lor.... i ran just now and i tot it'll be ok even when my legs started to feel sore... i tot...i wanna be fit... heheheh... so i ran and guess wat...ure rite...halfway...my legs failed me...i had to drag myself home lor...dammit... and worst part is i forgot to pay my hp bill last month and ya...its been disconnect... starhub hates me cos im a singtel staff i think....hehheehe... but anyways.... ya...dun run when u feel sore aites...

In the morning...i woke up and i did all the nessesary stuff and i went out to go to meet sayang... we just wanna have breakfast together...so i went to admiralty place and bought nasi lemak banana leaf... its nasi lemak wrapped in banana leaf and i love it... its like so diff to find with the price of 1.30 only... it has ikan bilis...fish...egg and sambal which taste like heaven.... its wonderful and together with the best strawberry milk anyone can ever taste... MEIJI STRAWBERRY MILK... try it... u wont regret it at all... subarashi.... the main important thing is i get to meet sayang... we ate breakfast together and talk about stuff.... i mean...i miss my sayang so often nowadays... its so hard to be away from her cos i miss her so much.... and meeting her even for a while... makes me really happy... i love you dear...i realli do... then im off to work the whole day till night... after that... till next time...heheheh... last advice... wanna give pantun to ur gf... make sure its a nice one...not lame one...rite sayang... ;)

[Rock On People! ]11:26 AM

Monday, October 05, 2009

Everyday is a new day and everyone definitely knows in their heart that.... they got another chance to spend their days on earth.... i know i definitely am grateful that im still here... : ) i know how much i need to buck up on myself.... there is not much but i know myself that the only thing i need to get me going in life is everyone around me... those who cares for me.... ok...right now i know i miss my girlfriend very much.... tommorow i werk and there u go...my life ....heheheh....

Oh...ya...ok... Saturday.... i went out with sayang....ok wait.... i came back werk in the morning and i was really tired... so i went back straight and slept... so...this weet sayang of mine.... came all the way to woodlands and brought me chicken rice.... so that i wont be tired to go to diana's open house.... so thats great.... i woke up...my Sayang and chicken rice... what could be more better than that... rite... hehehehe....we ate while we watch gerimis dihati.... oh btw... she asked me to record cos she couldnt watch as she was werking on that day.... then Sayang ironed my clothes and we went to her place...her turn to change... hehehehe....then we went to Diana's house for open house and we were the only people there.... cool... lots of food for us... THANKS TO DIANA AND NANA.... we get to eat a lot....woohooo..... ok...then we went to Didi's place...and woah.... lot voices were around the house... you know la didi... she has a loud voice like microphone being swallowed.... we chatted and then its time for me to go to werk.... Sayang sent me to werk... though after that...i didnt feel like letting her go cos i really felt like i wanted to spend more time with her... but no choice...i have to go to werk... i missed her after that.... a lot... so i had to wait for next day.... so the next day i came back from werk, i straight went back home and then rested for day till 3.... then my cousins came to my house and then i woke up and layan them... it was fun cos all of them came... heheheh... then the best part is the best... i went off to meet sayang.... we were suppose to go pasir ris park to chill and talk but in the end it rained...so we had no choice.... WE PLAYED BOWLING..... BUT Sayang... beat me in bowling....she was good.... : ) next time i try harder k ppl.... then we walk in the drizzling rain.... at the park.... romantic kan... but then... after that we had to go home... : ) i really enjoyed spending time with my sayang....i really love her and now i miss her oweadi.... i miss you sayang... : ) but the most important thing.... i really love...love you... : )

[Rock On People! ]7:56 AM

Friday, October 02, 2009

Hmm... i guess there is just so much things to say.... but first...updates.... jeng jeng jeng... haha... TT birthday...guess where she gets to eat... SWENSENS... heheh... cool huh... after her pizza hut outing with me...she gets swensens.... she must be quite happy... the whole of my family was there.... i find thinngs like this cool... hehehe...

Actually.... im blogging today at the expense of 5 minutes of my work time to share my views and feelings about how i really feel about things...i never felt this way before and ya...i think i really needs to change certain aspects of my life... The one thing i just know about myself which is true is i tend to depend on others and hence makes me unable to think for myself...always expecting others to tell me wat is right for me.... Why is this so i asked myself...?? its because im soo afraid of making mistakes... making wrong decisions.... thats bullshit of me... of all people who should know better is me... im allowed to make my own mistakes...as long as it teaches me.... whats the point of hiding myself from reality that mistakes are inevitable... Someone told me before... its not the mistakes which i should think of... its how i handle them....i find myslef very dumb for being this way... i would love to make my own decisions now.... decisions im confident will benefit me and depends on the situation and environment.... im 23 years old now and capable enough.... i can think... i can do better.... i know my strengths cos i have learned this... despite what happens and what's wrong... i know that whenever im working...i got to work hard... like now... i know i have problems... but that doesnt give me the right to slack at werk...instead i must work even harder... its never right to neglect anything for the sake of your own problems... work hard and eventually in a smallest hinge...u gonna get things right... thats what i believe.... once... i knew i had problems and i still did my work while in a down state... doing my best despite everything... and Alhamdulilah...my work was recognized... : ) My Grandma once told me when i told her that im dumb in lots of things espescially making fast decisions... She told me " Jat, mungkin Jat tak pandai dalam satu perkara tapi Nenek tau... Jat pandai dalam kerja keras... Jat pandai dalam berusaha... Jat pandai dalam tak putus asa... Jat pandai dalam bersabar... Jat pandai dalam jaga nenek..." I smiled cos i know what she meant... in short... She said i may not be a Genius... but im a Genius of hard work, never give up and patience... i almost cried hearing this from her cos it soothes my heart and it makes me more driven to become more clever.... i know that i will never give up in what i do... and what i do best... but reality check... its not enough.... believe me... i know... although those words are what drive me to do my best but in the real world sometimes the best is just not enough... you have to become even more than just your best... thats how it werks... like in o'levels.... if you fail ur english but u Ace every other subjects... u definitely fail.... Right... : ) im not saying this cos its brought me down...but instead its more of a challenge to me.... If i fail my english... ill go to ITE....Then i go to higher Nitec...after that to Polytechnic...then after that University.... i wont stop there....ill go even further...as far as i can go...i wont let my other subjects which im good at gone to waste just because of my english but instead ill work hard to polish those subject and not forgetting my english... and even if i have a degree after that...ill retake my O'levels english again...till i pass....cos i know how important tat is... : ) what im trying to say is... no matter what...ill work hard and never give up even if i know im not good enough but i won't give up... Cut my hands... ill use my legs...cut my legs...ill roll down... gouge my eyes... ill use my ears... cut my ears ill use my nose... even then...i will not give up to work hard... i will do my best... Insya'allah...with the help of Allah... i will reach my best... i will be the best....

Eddy said to me once "Jat, patience is a virtue...but your patience is ur true virtue" Thanks Becks

Sayang said this to me once " Sweetheart...u are the nicest person i have ever met with a heart of gold... Stay that way and never give up on yourself" Thank you Sayang for always helping me out and advising me always...you have never given up on me and thats why i will never ever give up... I love you... :)

Didi said to me once " You have almost everything as a good person but no one's perfect...work hard on your inperfection even if it comes to as much as 70 %" Thanks Di... its worth ur saliva :)

Abg Iz said to me " Jat perangai Takmo macam Dog...Woof!!!" ok that part tak perlu but ill still post it cos i think i just wanna post it.... hehehehe..

I can't wait to meet my sayang tommorow.... : ) take care people....

[Rock On People! ]5:49 AM